Another day breaks on Paradise island,
Little glimmers of it coming through the gap at the top of the curtain rail
That was a structural detail i hadn’t intended to but, quite presciently, overlooked when i was putting up my blackout drapes.
Still in bed, from the play of light and shadow on my wall,
i know whether it’s going to be a sunshiny day
Or whether the island would wear its Nimbus* cape,
Disrobing only when all has been washed clean;
When all has been purged and restored yet again,
For us to do over; for us to get it right.
I get to “my” cafe, always armed with my iPad or my book
My book or my iPad; my iPad or my book - never without.
My cafe, that safe haven of familiarity and space
Always the same cafe, my cafe; the one cafe - never another.
The place, the accompaniments, even the latte i always have:
A conglomerate of sameness, of routine, of security
Shotgunned together by the compulsions of a creature of habit;
Unsettled only, infrequently, when i momentarily feel something stir inside
A sensation, an excitement, a consciousness of Something More.
Come evening, I sit in my lounge, post workout, post shower
Cloaked in a gentle haze of endorphin fuelled fulfilment
For getting my steps in; my cardio done; for being “conscious and good”.
For staving off the Monster of Maladies; for helping the universe protect and preserve
And then I turn on the television to the News: that digital Carnival of Disorder
To Mankind’s ravagement, sadism and deception
To Nature’s retaliation of catastrophes and devastation
And it continues, ON and ON and ON...
And I PAUSE ||
A feeling of wretchedness and hopelessness overcomes me
And then irritation, frustration and a tired exasperation
And finally a fading away; an almost patrimonial fugue.
And i get on with my evening of dinner, Netflix and some reading;
Then to bed.
Another dawn breaks; and the timorous glow of another new day
Reaches into my bedroom; flickering into the homes of 7 billion other people
A tenuous beacon of second chances, do-overs; of divine favours
And i step out of my home; and head towards my cafe,
Once again, walking down the road of endless possibilities, new beginnings; of other things to come.
De khudai pe aman.
*Nimbus: rain bearing clouds